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Take and give
Central to Estonian culture – and to many others – is the idea of reciprocity. We received so much hospitality during our trip, we are...
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Mar 8, 20243 min read


A word on language
The Estonian language is a case of, “don’t try this at home”, or ära püüa kodus seda keelt õppida. I probably got that wrong. Estonian is...
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Mar 1, 20243 min read


Heart of oak
Growing in the middle of a football field on Saaremaa is an oak voted European tree of the year in 2015. Someone had a sense of humour....
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Feb 21, 20242 min read


An involuntary gold miner
The story of Bernhard Lehova, grandma’s younger brother, always had an unreal quality to it. In dad’s telling, his uncle returned to the...
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Feb 17, 20242 min read


Cold case reopened
Cousin Inga pulled out two letters dated 1949 she had discovered 3 weeks prior to our arrival. Hidden in the back of our great-aunt...
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Feb 6, 20243 min read


The end of old Estonia
A warming climate, a Pope in difficulty, and a boy born Temujin in 1162 figured among key events - to my mind - that ended millennia of...
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Jan 31, 20243 min read


A tale of 2 chessplayers
Did our grandfather ever play Paul Keres, Estonia’s national chess hero? I have not been able to find out, though it is a tantalising...
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Jan 19, 20243 min read


A monument to socialism
Everywhere we cycled in Estonia the abandoned ruins of white, silicate brick buildings spoke mute testimony to the failure of collective...
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Dec 26, 20232 min read


The first Christmas tree
Tallinn saw the world’s first appearance on public display of a Christmas tree, in 1441. The Brotherhood of the Blackheads – not a...
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Dec 21, 20232 min read


The sword
A long, iron blade arcs swiftly, cleaving flesh and bone, an arbiter of destiny. A twist of fate for Kalevipoeg, Estonia’s mythical giant...
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Dec 14, 20233 min read


Losing a house, gaining a family
The hospitality we received in Estonia was outstanding. Our search for Napps in grandfather’s hometown confirmed this in a single,...
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Dec 3, 20234 min read


Looking at Russia
Wooden houses and tall trees line the Narva river; fishermen dot a smooth, brown, steady current. Russia’s face to the West, 100 metres...
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Nov 22, 20233 min read


A note on cycling
I am forever thankful to the logging truck driver who put their life at risk to save ours. We rode a small road downhill to a sudden stop...
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Nov 18, 20233 min read


Estonian etiquette
Keep at least 3 metres' distance from someone you haven’t met before, says a website on how to socialise in Estonia. We thought we’d...
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Nov 6, 20233 min read


Death at the stroke of a pen
More than two years ago I discovered among our father’s papers several typewritten copies of a two-page document he had never mentioned,...
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Oct 25, 20233 min read


Estonia's most dangerous animal
Not wolves, bears or lynxes – the meanest critter in Estonia is 2mm long, and almost impossible to avoid. Ticks are much like spiders and...
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Oct 20, 20232 min read


An old farmhouse
Deep in our family memory is the farmstead, the talu where grandma grew up and where dad spent a winter and spring during the war. While...
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Sep 28, 20234 min read


Soul of Estonia
More than half of Estonia’s land area is forest, and so the forest figures large in the Estonian imagination, in myth and legend, culture...
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Sep 23, 20232 min read
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